What If?
What if I am truly not a nice person? I hope you are reading that and thinking to youself, "why would she say that?" However, I fear that some of you are reading it and thinking, "at least she has come to that on her own!"
You see, this weekend has been interesting. I do not drink often. I do not see the point in it to be matter of fact. Furthermore, I do not like how it makes me feel - especially how mean I seem to get. It is interesting that I have been asked twice this weekend why I do not drink. Both times I simply stated that I am a mean drinker and I do not like that in myself. This is a controlable thing you see. The first girl who asked me then replied with, "well, that is probably a good thing since you are fiesty enough sober." That kind of threw me for a loop to begin with because I don't even know her that well.
Then, I was asked again tonight. With the same answer, I received, something along the lines of - I can't imagine you are meaner drunk than you are sober. Are you kidding me? Do people really think I am mean? If so, why? Now, granted, I am blunt and don't hold back my opinion much. However, I am non-confrontational and a chicken shit to top that. Mean?
I was told that the latter person was just joking. Maybe that is true, but to hear something like that TWICE in one weekend has really thrown me. Not to mention the fact that indeed made me want to be mean. I hate that about my personality. You know, the "if you think I am, why shouldn't I be?"
Sometime, I will get absolutely wasted drunk and see if people like me then. Probably not, ask the Mexican who got my wrath last time..."English or go away," I said. To a complete stranger who was simply trying to buy me a drink on my bachelorette party. Not nice. I am positive I am not that mean on a regular basis...or at least I hope I am not.
I hope you all had a great weekend. Mine was too short!
posted by Linz @ 11:12 PM
3 Comments:
Linz, I honestly don't think you're mean. My idea of you being "mean" is telling TJ "No" when we want to do something stupid. :-p
Honey Lamb, you aren't mean. I think "fiesty" is good. It means that you speak your mind and don't keep things to yourself to keep other people happy. Speak your mind and keep on speaking it! If that makes people think you are mean, then so be it. I'll be mean right along with you.
I am rolling my eyes now. No, really. I can't belive you think you are mean. If you are mean, what does that make me, the devil?
You are not mean, you aren't even that fiesty in my opinion. You are way nicer, more forgiving, and generally more tolerant than most of the people I know. These comments were clearly coming from people who don't know you well.
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